Found it!

Oh look...I found my blog again.... I suppose I should comment that I need to update it more...haha

Shaggy

Halloween...

The best day of the year. A day that I can really attempt to focus my thoughts and come up with some interesting ideas... This year I had thought I had my idea all figured out, and was still thinking that the other morning when I was working on my costume. Since that morning I have had 15 different thoughts on how I could change any and all parts of the costume and now I am not sure what I am doing. Some thoughts could just transfer on to the starting point of a thought for next year's costume. But now I need to figure out what it is I really want to do this year, and figure it out fast, because some of the thoughts I have I don't have time to get them finished in a way that would look even half way decent....

Shaggy

Definitely need to write more...

I keep neglecting the blog.....not because I don't have any thoughts, just not many thoughts that are worthy of sharing, I guess. My imagination seems to have been on vacation for the last few months and I have hardly put pen or pencil to paper, whether it be for writing or drawing. I got into a...I guess it could be called a conversation....with a friend on Facebook last night as we were commenting back and forth on one of her status updates.

We discussed the benefits of writing, and the feelings of wanting to be secluded and locked away from others while our minds worked to turn reality into something that could spark the imagination into creating some read worthy words. She has read some of my old thoughts, poems, and general ramblings, and one of her last comments had to do with if I was not writing, I was not expressing myself with the full extent of my self... I had not thought of it in that way, but it does kind of make sense. The more I used to write, the more my imagination worked, and the more stuff i came up with, be it stories, fantasies, or just plain odd thoughts.

I really should write more. I have a pile of empty notebooks waiting for me to realize that as well... Now to just remember how to put one word after another to form something that sounds worthy of putting said pen to paper.

Shaggy

Again...

Once again I notice that I haven't been here in a while... I really should do some more writing, its been a while since I have sat and did any stream of conciousness scribbling in the notebooks, and then maybe i could come up with something good that I could share and enlighten the world with... hahahahahahahaha Yeah...okay. At least maybe I could come up with something that sounds halfway decent and makes some kind of sense... If I could actually write something that made sense, then maybe I could do something like freelance writing, but I don't know the first thing about writing anything....except a bunch of gibberish...

Shaggy

Need inspiration

Got back from a bike ride yesterday afternoon and decided it was time to think about picking up the pencils again, so I began to think about what to do. I decided what I could do is go back through all my piles of unfinished sketches, and some I did finish, and decide which ones I could redo in a totally different way. I have two folders piled with stuff that are setting out and ready for me to mess with. Now I just have to pick up the pencils and start doing it.

Shaggy

A little adventure

Got up this morning thinking I would just get the bike out and check out some yard sales. I did that, and even spent $1. Plus a guy gave me a small gas grill for free that needs a new grill plate, so hopefully it works. I saw a gas grill at another sale for $5, that had charcoal in it....so i'm thinking that one didn't work so good...unless he still wanted the charcoal smell?

I then spent $25 at the airport. $5 to take a self guided tour through a B-17 bomber, which was here for whatever reason. With the only instructions being take as long as you want, as many pictures as you want, and if you have any questions let us know. The other $20 was for a 15 minute, or so, ride in a Cessna. The crosswinds were a nuisance, especially when I was attempting to take a picture, but it was still a fun time.

Shaggy

Why do I ride?

Yes I do ride because I have too. Not having a 4-wheeled vehicle for 2 years now is the main reason for that. But I also ride to clear my head, to see and hear more stuff than I would if I was shut up inside some gas guzzling box on wheels, and to relax when i'm not having to watch out for stupid people that can't drive who aren't paying attention to other cars, so they definitely wouldn't be paying attention to something as small as a bike.

I ride because its fun....and I suppose it could be considered good for me too.... I ride because I can meet, and have met, some good people that ride also. And yeah, there will always be some stupid wannabes that think they are hot shit because they can do a bunny hop off a curb, but I try to ignore the useless fucks as much as possible. I ride because i don't have to rush to get anywhere, I can take my time and attempt to enjoy my time on this rock.

Do I sometimes wish I could ride faster? Sure... Then I could get to further destinations quicker, but I would still be riding. I've seen people, animals, and just day to day things that I would have normally missed boxed up and rolling in a car.

Do I miss having a car? Sometimes. But then I remember how much of an annoyance the cars I had were, how much gas and insurance cost. Repairs... If I ever had one again, I would say it would either be a truck or a van....so i could haul my bikes with me, in case I need, or find a good area, to ride...

Shaggy

What now....?

When I first started this blog it was so I could have some place to put my thoughts and share different things. At least I think thats why I started it....haha Its been so long since I started this thing that I don't remember what all I was going to do with it. Maybe now that I found it again I can keep up on it this time and post more thoughts and shit.

I've been thinking off and on about reinvention and what things need to change. I know something has to change, maybe even a few things have to change, but not sure what yet or how to go about it. But something has to change before I lose whats left of my mind and I end up constantly feeling like i'm stuck, no matter what I am doing, or when I am doing it. And i've already been feeling like i've been stuck in a rut for a while now.

Why have I been feeling like that? Couldn't tell you any specific reasons right at the moment. But I really should figure it all out and decide what I really want, or I am going to be so damn annoyed and probably snap at the wrong person, at the wrong time, over the simplest, most stupid reason there may be...

Shaggy

One more...

Again, two posts in one day....wow.... I am officially bored out of my skull and have absolutely no thoughts as to what to do. Andrea wants to go do something outside, but I have no clue what. Maybe its the heat that is getting to me and making me not want to do much? I don't know...

I rented two movies today. I haven't rented a movie in so long I can't remember when the last time I did that was... I got the Road warrior, and the Professional. Yeah, I know...nothing new. But I was not really in the mood for something really stupid, although sometimes the really stupid ones can bring a laugh....or they are good for putting me to sleep.

Shaggy

Again....

Another new person is moving into the one downstairs apartment. When we moved in two years ago and old, useless, drunk lived there and always had too many people in there just about every week. Before he got kicked out he had at least 5 people staying in this little dinky ass place for most of the last month he was there. The next guy that went in there was an old, even more useless, drunk. And he people over almost every other day, and sometimes most of the weekend.

The second guy might have lasted longer if he didn't get so drunk that he had no clue how stupid he was. He once called the fire department while I was at work to say there was a gas leak. They showed up and evacuated everybody and, as my girlfriend came to work to tell me, found nothing. So, we figure he was wasted again, at 10 am, and stumbled past his gas stove and took a big whiff... He got kicked out, after having 5 or 6 people stuffed into that apartment for a few days, and one of them threatened the landlord from what we heard, when she went to tell the guy she didn't want one more complaint about them leaving the music playing all night and keeping people awake and having the cops around here more than once.

This new guy is another older guy, but I guess he used to live here before we moved in. He is supposed to be pretty quiet, and actually work, unlike the other two. I guess time will tell. Now if she will just do something about the old bitch that tried to burn the place down, that doesn't know how to shut a door without slamming it hard enough to rattle the windows....

Hmmm.....

So....I went back and checked out some of my posts from '05. I guess some of them sound kind of negative...haha I could blame it on the fact the the rest of the world has too many really stupid people that are fucking everything all up for the rest of us...but there would be no point. And that would sound just as negative... I also noticed that some of my posts were few and far between.

Its Friday night and i'm getting ready to go on a bike ride with a half a dozen, or so, people I have been riding with. Should be an okay time... Sometimes the best rides are the quiet rides with just a few people.

Maybe this time I can keep up with my blog more. I will try, at least, but I make no promises. I try not to make a promise I can't keep...

Shaggy

Damn...Been a while

I guess I just hadn't realized how long it has been since I have been here. Can't say it was because I was so busy, because that wouldn't be it at all. Guess I either just didnt have anything to say, or I was letting out my thoughts in other ways.

Haven't done too much in the last 3 years. Been in a relationship with a nice girl. Joined the Freakikenation almost 2 years ago and have been riding with them. And i've taken a break from drawing to try other things and have not really done much of anything lately....

Shaggy