Horoscopes
I usually don't read horoscopes, as they are generally only worth a quick laugh. As I am still waiting for "all the money" that I was supposed to get at least three or for times. The last couple horoscopes I read in the tv guide said I should give up on the illusion, whatever the hell that means, and to give up most of my friends and become even more private than I already am. I did give that one some thought. I tried to think of how many people I would put on a list of friends. Well, besides my best friend and her kids and a very few people I have met online, the rest of the people on this rock I could care less about. I didn't include family in that thought because they are family, not that I really talk to that many in the family anyway.........
The idea came up the other day about trust. My best friend I would trust to know more about me than anyone, and she does. She is my friend, my sister, and my dark ange. A few other people I would trust to know what I would feel I could let them know about me. Most people I wouldn't trust to know my shoe size.
Some days I think how nice it would be to plant some stakes in the front yard with some heads on them....but that is illegal. And the neighbors might complain. Some days when I have to set and listen to somebody ramble on about what they think is important while giving a whole lot of double talk and bullshit and the same time, I think about how much they might scream if they were skinned alive. Or at least have their tongues ripped out of their heads. Not that I am a violent person mind you, but some days thinking of certain people having all sorts of tortures put upon their worthless bodies can be such happy thoughts indeed.
I have once again been called mean. I can deal with that. At times I have been called much worse. But thats okay too. Because maybe I am. To some people. I have also been told i'm nice, sweet, and truly kind. I read somewhere that one can never really know ones self without balance between their light and dark sides. Well, balanced or not, I simply am.
Shaggy
posted by shaggy @ 9:51 PM
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That was very insightful and articulately put. We all have our light and dark sides. Some of us show the world very little of our dark sides and some show a bit more. I once wrote a story about torturing my entire family to daeth when I was in the 10th grade for a Creative Writing workshop. I thought it was really good. I took so much time on it and made sure it flowed really well. But when my teacher read it she totally freaked out, calling in my parents and a psychologist. It took 2 weeks talking to the psychologist for her to finally get that all it was, was a story. A very dark,scary story. But a story non the less. After that I learned to hide most of my dark side. For the most part now I am who I am too. Don't let others tell you don't matter just cause your different. Different is good.
A friend of mine told me that she wrote a poem once about a chair with a broken leg,which she turned in the poem to a teacher for a class thing, and the idiot thought the poem was about her, so he sent her to the principal and they called her mother in from work. They told her they thought that what she was writing was a story about killing herself. Her mother burst out laughing and told them that they had an old wooden chair that the leg got busted on when they were cleaning and my friend got real upset because she loved that chair.
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